and so it begins..
i remember reading somewhere that one of the most painful things in life is to wait. just wait. it can be waiting for anything. for a wife, pain can come by awaiting news of her husband’s safety. for a lover, pain can come by just waiting for his/her answer to whether or not her/his love will be returned. for a mother, waiting for her son to come home from war is excruciatingly painful. for a soon to be father, awaiting news of his wife in labour is painful.
just by waiting our inner self exerts much pain at times. but why? i think it’s because of the unknown. u never know what will be the outcome. will it be good? will it be bad?
whatever the outcome maybe. i think that our time spent waiting should be fruitful. do not stop living just for waiting. and that is what i’m gonna go. i’m so nervous right now, but i’m not going to ponder. the outcome is written in the stars. God has set my journey. whatever the journey may be, i will not waste my waiting period 
On a sadder note, have you heard? Oprah is going to end the Oprah Winfrey Show on her 25th season. the last show would be on Sept 9th, 2011! Nooooooooooooooooooooo! T.T
I love love love Oprah. I think she’s one the most amazing woman of our time. the way she live’s life, her beliefs, her passion and enthusiasm is admirable. I’m gonna miss her show so so much. But i understand her decision to an extent. nothing is forever and sadly all good things must come to an end 
So anyhoo, i’ll be off to Sabah for Raya Haji like always. But ay mami! I have so much to update on. Maybe i should mae drafts then just publish em when i’m there LOL. I need to update you guys on Coroboree 2009, my Penang trip with J9 and well SAM as a whole. it was truly life changing in more ways than one. Till the next time sunshines. Have a pleasant day and remember to reach for the stars!
the fear
come closer, a bit more. i lean in and whisper “do you wanna know a secret?”
*looks left and looks right*
i fear accounts :’(
it’s been this big tall brick wall that i’ve constantly been unable to climb. ever since SPM, i’ve been unable to excel in this subject. i got an A2 for it in the end. i felt happy yet i wish i could have gotten an A1. oh well. accounts was over, yay!
too bad it came again for SAM. ugh. even my mum hates accounts cause i get paranoid and teary cause of it. so yes people, i think roughly about 60% of the SAM population has officially ‘merdeka’ and here i am, counting the days before my last paper, accounts. the worst part of it all is i’ve been slacking. sigh.
well, wish me luck people. godspeed!
p/s: i can’t wait for coroboree and my class penang holiday! ah the beach+awesome classmates!! i smell an awesome camwhore holiday 
sigh
because mcsteamy and lexie rock my socks. dot.
Title: A Fail to Kiss is a Fail to Cope (1/1)
Author: lexiesloan
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
From: http://lexiesloan.livejournal.com/52492.html#cutid1
this is not my work, the author is lexiesloan is to be credited
Ring! Ring!
Mark wanted to ignore the ringing phone, especially when he could feel Lexie starting to pull away and he wrapped his arms around her waist again, trying to keep here there. She squirmed against him though, trying to free herself.
“Mark,” she breathed again. “It’s my first phone call in our apartment.”
“It’s probably just a telemarketer, Lex,” Mark grumbled.
“Please?” She said softly and that hearing that one word from her made him sigh heavily and loosen his arms.
Lexie smiled, popping a quick kiss on his cheek before hurrying out of the bathroom and into the bedroom, grabbing the portable phone off of the dresser before it could stop ringing.
“Hello?” She answered slightly out of breath. Mark came back into the bedroom and climbed back onto the bed, collapsing onto his back, laying spread eagle across the mattress. “No, thanks,” Lexie shook her head, slightly deflated. “We don’t want any.” She hung up the phone with a sigh.
“If you want, I can get my cell and call the apartment so you can pick up,” Mark teased, lifting his head, smirking at her.
“Oh, shut up,” she said but she was smiling as she did so.
brisbane
This is the uni i’m hoping to get into, if JPA allows it for me and if i meet the high TER of 96
It’s warm and sunny. Exactly what i want! I can’t stand the cold. I freeze even in an air-conditioned room. I need the warmth of the sun on my skin with a sunny birds eye view of everything around me.
Queensland is in Brisbane. It’s known as the sunny state for a few reasons. It’s the warmest city and is popular with the tourists. Think of it as a holiday city. Oh, how’d i love to study in a place where everyday is a holiday! rawr!
So far, i only 2 other people who put UQ as their 1st choice. It’s just the 3 of us out of the 3 legal classes. One from each class. So to Ian and Wei Joon, keep your head held high and start digging in those books. Finals are next week. We need 96+!! go go go!
addictions and obsessions
i admit, i’m the type of person who easily falls into an addiction or obsession. i remember this time i was so obsessed with Linkin Park. i think it lasted for a year, oh it was bad. then there was the time i got so addicted to Prison Break in high school i even skipped school the next day cause i wanted to finish season 1 on dvd.
since coming to college, i’d like to believe i have this obssessive addictive behavior under control. but frankly, i think its still in me. at a time where my mind should be solely focused on my finals. i still go on facebook to play stupid games. i’m blaming you country story, cafe world and kung fu pets. sigh.
can someone please wake me up. i mean, why isn’t my mind fully focused for this November. exams are fast approaching. i do exercises yeah, but there’s so much more u can do, dear little girl.
so diyana rahimatsah. i’m begging you, stop getting addicted to non important things and get obsessed with studying please!
cause today’s popular will become tomorrow’s classic
‘Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love.’
Hamlet by Shakespeare
your smile is so elastic baby
you..you’re falling down..and the world stops spinning..you’re falling down..
smile for the camera baby, that’s pretty much what you’re good at. flash after flash, by the time the night is through you’ll realise the nightmare is about to end. thank god!
but hey, you’re not gonna win an emmy or academy award by just flashing that smile. you got to work for it.
so bring out that nescafe and stack up the books. let’s keep away that flashy smile, for now. you’re about to be a full time nerd again
Ya Allah, give me strength, give me faith, i trust in you. for you know best
Bring on the finals! it’s time to kick-ass nerd style!
syawal came with a blast
so here we are, post ramadhan and welcoming the syawal month.
selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all muslims
and to the non-muslims happy holiday!!
loads of things have been happening in life, but for now i’ll concentrate on hari raya. aidilfitri this year was somewhat different. i spent most of it in jb with mum and dad. uncle mat from sabah came over on the 3rd of syawal. other than that, it was basically “so, u had a phone raya lah” (era 2009), LOL. i called most of my relatives to wish em happy hari raya and got loads of calls too.
selamat hari raya, kepada saudara serta saudari, setahun, hanya sekali, meraikan hari yang mulia ini
a ton of friends came over too. that’s one of the things i love about raya or more generally the festive seasons in malaysia. people from all over get together and well, reconnect. reconnecting is good
8 jahanam >.<
ye old schoolmates
friendships never fade through time
from primary to post-up
them juniors, big boys already
we didn’t manage to bake any raya cookies, booo! especially mum’s much loved pineapple jam tarts. the family in kl were literally craving for em. super sorry, we promise to make em one day and give them to u guys. honestly, i’m craving for those tarts too. mum’s recipe of course.
oh, raya. the time for laughter, joy and filling those hawt-raya-bodies-after ramadhan with glorious food. foooooood!
it’s the time for kids to be kids and well, for us pre-adults to be kids again.
thank god i managed to see my cousins for raya. though it was only for half a day hey, at least it was something and boy did i have fun. shaki’s fake raya was hilarious! i fully understand the effects of bad raya photo’s on a growing adolescent now. if not treated immediately, it can scar u for life!! oh the horror! :p
kiki, bee gee, gor gor, hehehe. i love my cousins. am missing asy and madi plus the canadians
so people, i hope your raya was good. mine was awesome. best of all, i can feel that more is coming once i head back to college 
*hug hug kiss kiss* quoted from the Nanny
to come: raya from unit-to-unit, open house/partay at the much loved unit, raya dinner with the partner and loads more!
